September the 25th has come and gone, and I am a year older.
I don't feel any older. I don't know how 29 is supposed to feel. Am I supposed to be freaking out about 30? Probably. But I'm not.
I feel...exactly the same. After all, it is just the number that has changed, not me. I suppose that's not necessarily true, I have changed from the first time I revolved around the sun. But we change in leaps and bounds for our first few years, and as we age change happens more slowly.
I am still not where I want to be in life, but I'm striving to be content where I am. Even though I thought I would be married by 29, I'm not, and while that may irk me a little bit, I am learning to rely on God and put myself in his control, and not my own control.
My new theme verse has become Proverbs 3:5-6, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
This year there will be a lot of transition. In May, I expect to graduate from school, so I will be moving from being a full-time student to (Lord willing) being a full-time employee. And I don't know what that entails. I might be moving from my home in the North Shore to a completely different state, maybe even a different country. No matter what I do, I know that I will be leaving the familiar and venturing out into the unfamiliar. It's going to be scary. It's going to be confusing.
But before I get there, I need to trust that God is going to help me get through these last two semesters. I need to trust that he is going to put the right job in my path. I need to not make my own plans, because we know how well those work out (hint: they don't).
In all, I think that I am in a much better place than I was last year. This summer stretched and grew me in my faith, and I am thankful for the opportunities I had at Camp-of-the-Woods in which to grow.
I am looking forward to my 29th year, and I pray that God reveals himself and his plans in a mighty way.
